Saturday, March 31, 2012

evolution? -_-"

rubbish post, again.


Got bored and "compiling" hairstyles that I've got
Kindergarten/primary school, secondary school, college, until now
The shortest I've got was during secondary school, cut it myself too ♥
And the longest... well, the previous one before I cut it last month

Always wanted to had long hair when I was a kid, when I was still a girl (what..?)
I mean, when I was still very girly and loves girly stuffs
Since secondary school, found out that it's so troublesome until I kept cutting it
Didn't get to grow my hair long at all
Finally few years ago I hold myself to grow it long
And finally, I get to chop it off, awesome :B

Looking back at my own pic with long hair... felt so weird 'cause it's a bit girlish...?
Still love and prefer short hair.. neutral is GOOOOD.

Friday, March 30, 2012

zzz

那两天去参观后,还是只有这个想法:
“如果我进那间的话就好”

如果读那边的话圈子就比较小,找到志同道合的也比较容易吧...?
不过如果读那边的话,有可能变厉害也有可能会变疯,因为那边的人太强了
而且认识的人也不同... 不懂是好事还是什么 zzz

“如果”... 是谁发明这个字的?没有用的字
要的话就来一个confirm的选择啦顶

想也没有用的,现在在这里都要毕业了
不过我就是喜欢想那些废的垃圾,想到自己的脑一直lag机process到慢 zzz
....真正来讲的话,好过不要读...(这句要给家人斩死)
不过为了活在这个现实的社会.... 噢!

忙的时候又想休息,得空是又觉得无聊...
不过也好,不用一直酱gan jiong
一直看认识的人的blog,看他们的状况,尤其是写自己的心情或想法的
很好看下,能了解不同人的思想,或赞同/不赞同
不过熟人的都很少update的咯显... 例如daiji和llj... yvonne chin...
很显叻....

还在想
FYP要做什么好叻?毕业出来要做什么好叻...?
我只想好留学去英国时要做什么
wtf还有酱够死鬼久 也不懂能不能去或计划的顺利没有 zzz

每次都是这样的咯显
小学去中学前就想好了要进什么学会和进art class
虽然进了想进的学会,但过后因为不喜欢那些人所以就退出 lol
中学还有隔几年才进学院时就想好要进那一个学院选哪一颗
不过... 噢~

继续想吧,继续发梦 T_T


还有一个月就快开学了,是不是该开始行动了叻...?!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

羡慕

对我来讲,活着就是为了追求梦想
不管是容易的还是很难达到的
完整的家还是想成为什么还是做好事还是什么垃圾都好
总之能做到自己喜欢的事一直生活下去
人生就算是很美满了

....有个完整的家庭还不够?有的人想要都没有
还要一直去羡慕其他人...
不过这是两回事啦 不能放在一起...

看着他们站在台上呈现自己的作品
享受自己做着的东西默契好的不得了...



........羡慕

怪自己浪费了那么多时间。

Friday, March 23, 2012

lapsap

“怎样?做到现在ok没有?”
“Err ok lor...”

Blablabla....

之前都有问过那两个人一样的问题
“做么你会进这行的?”
回答的都是“不懂噢,不过...blablabla”等等的

这次对不同的人再问一样的问题
“你做么会进这行的?”
“喜欢咯。不喜欢的话都不会intern完回来啦~”
(不过他们都说可以看到很多东西,这个我也认同的啦...)

.........
能做到自己喜欢的东西,真幸运真幸福。


...妈的,一年才看不到五次电影的人
应该没有资格讲“喜欢”这行呱?


快点毕业然后不懂找什么
快点赚钱就可以去学想要的东西啊法克!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

大切な人

Finally had time to spend with them <3


Finally had an outing with the two of them
Just spent our time together buying some craft stuffs, doing crafts at my place
Lunch and dinner together, and finally we took purikura after 2~3 years
Had been waiting for this for a looooooong time!
(but these two purikura machine so disgusting, it will enlarge our eyes and put fake makeup on us zzz)
Just a simple yet happy and funny day with them :3
(PANOZ ah.. when is our turn to take purikura again ah deng...)

Family day <3
Barely had the chance to go out or sit together to have lunch or dinner together
Since my grandma went into the hospital and discharged from the hospital
Everyday my dad has to go take care of my grandma, and now I barely have time too due to this internship
And today I went jogging with my parents, after that we all went to the hot air balloon fest
But... wrong timing, so in the end we just went home without seeing the hot air balloons
But that's ok 'cause we had a simple great day together <3

It's been a long time I didn't use my dslr
Photography skill didn't improve at all, wanted to snap candid pictures and crowd etc
But all sucks! Angle sucks, whole thing sucks!
But then I just love to snap those kids' photos (not a pedo la... -_-")
'cause they're just so natural, always looks nice in candid shots
(like the one above I took just now ♥ but cropped la this pic)
Posted in my photo blog with another few photos ♥

Great weekend
And back to work tomorrow... D':

Monday, March 12, 2012

Status

Just a random thought.. no, already had this thought many years ago
Why is there high and low status? Is it really a need for this?
We are all human, we are all the same
What's with all the special treatments or judgement etc?
Well unless you're the king or whatever...

Judging people on how they look, how they dress
How they talk or how they work, what they work
I'm not saying that I never did this kind of "judgement"
It's just that.. why do people do this? This "natural thinking"?

High status.. it's either you're super smart or super hardworking in order to reach there
To be successful, to earn more, to have a better life, to afford more rubbish
And once you've reached there, it's either you still remain the same or just act like a boss
I mean, really act like a BOSS. Or KING.
Why??

Low status.. It's either you're not smart or lazy or just don't want to be at the top
Just staying in your comfort zone
Some might say that you're useless or aimless, but why?
What is wrong with staying in your comfort zone?
You're already happy with it, why making yourself struggle more?

Everyone has their own problems to face and struggle
Since we were just born as a baby to a kid to a teenager to an adult to old citizen
Anything anyone, facing different situations and problems, big or small
We are only human, don't treat yourself or anyone so different...

Childish thoughts? Thank you very much.

就是不喜欢这种地位差别,所以之前戏剧当导演排戏时才选择大家一起坐在地上谈东西
排戏也开玩笑那样来排,让大家排戏时排到开心
尤其因为那是搞笑荒谬剧...

讲到戏剧,前几天在公司遇到两位舞台剧演员
本来心情不怎么好,遇到她们心情变比较好了
有亲切感?=_-|||
“有没有想过要进回这个圈子?”
........
我不否认我没有想过要再次参与,不过...
不敢再加入..?等下又因为自己分配不到时间还是什么...
....... 借口,应该算是懒得做那些肢体训练 zzz
还有也没像以前那么有热诚了
自己也很久不去看任何演出了,怕自己等下emo ==

唉不懂啦,现在都没怎么去想了
自己真正想做的东西都还没实现
只能说,加入了戏剧组看和听和经历的
弄到我想很多垃圾 =_=
不过有好有坏的...

OK END OF EMONESS!!
SLEEP TIME!!!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

efrshgdh

我要看live band演出
我要看舞台剧

不过站在舞台上的人,最爽
看到观众因为自己的演出而开心,更爽



Money...
Must earn a lot of money to buy music record collections and guitars....
And see live performances....
And and... eat good food....

Ughhh...

Saturday, March 3, 2012

I♥shorthair

Glad that I have thick hair
So that I can keep on chopping it until I like it


And at the same time proving to them I've got the skill, I'm still loving this.

无言

真正很想做的东西总是被反对
理发,gap band,读fine art
现在做这行也被反对
想真正学更深的,想了解器材,又被反对
没有被反对的就是“正常”的,设计,摄影...

“粗工不是女生做的”,“没有自己的时间”,“迟点变tomboy,最后自己一个人,可怜”...?

以前想理发美发已经算很女生了,但又被讲会没有自己的时间,手会烂掉,就没想了
自己一个人我也准备好了,结婚生子还是什么一切顺其自然,没有就没有
生子?不想让我的孩子活在酱的世界。结婚?老了也是其中一个先走,也是可怜。

虽然已经算很好,还能给我读设计
不过一开始都不是我要的...

“兴趣理想不能当饭吃”?
..........不喜欢这个想法...

为了将来继续有好的生活就去读那些容易找到工的...
问题是,即使你读多容易找到工的都好,也不是要先看自己的能力表现好不好?

虽然讲什么念什么都是对我好,不过...



连续每天早出晚归,连续四天的拍摄终于完了
很确定已经选错公司了,不过也算了
虽然浪费三个月,至少也学到一些东西

虽然我不能像男生那样搬很重的东西,粗工
但我宁愿做这些多过整天在公司对着电脑或serve人
虽然是粗工,但是是学技术的东西
而且那里的人还比公司里的人好,很乐意地教你做这个那个
反而公司的人会讲女生不要做这些(家人也是...),要不然就被老板赶出去
要不然叫你去看人家有什么需要帮忙就人家,过后又讲这个不是我们负责的,不用做
要不然就上面的人叫你做这个,突然又有人出现讲做么你这样做
要不然就本来叫你做一,过后又骂你做么要做
矛盾到死,都不懂要听哪一个

虽然是累,但又很期待下个job,要快点跟那些很yeng的好人工作!