Tuesday, December 11, 2012

-

要不是习惯了每天临睡前会一直玩ipod,我都不会看到
立刻去看,以免再封闭 =_=

看了,也是不知详情,只能靠想象和怀疑
做了什么,也阻止不了,
不常联络久久才见面一次,没办法控制

只想说,即使没人理你或没人听你或不想出声
还是会有两条水在你背后怀疑和猜测你的

那么难得我会在忙中问候,你都不鸟我
另外一条水要都没有啊 -_-

总之你照顾好自己就是了啦。

Saturday, December 1, 2012

5 days

I hate people didn't answer my questions and just ignore it, that is why I prefer doing things alone most of the time
I hate pre-production, can't control everyone when there's no one listen to you

Asking for help and people just won't help, might as well to train to depend on yourself
This is what I think, or thought

Not having a good time during pre-production, "ask for people who are free if you need help" they said
The problem is, no one is free, those who are free live far away from me, who to ask?
Only asked for simple help, knowing nothing about the latest news, they were busy
So somehow I quit asking, because they were busy

Struggling with frustrations and of course anger
I admit that I have bad temper, easily get angry even though it's just a simple thing
But somehow "convincing" myself that the others didn't meant it and I myself am the problem too
Communicating, I'm not good at it, obviously

It's not really fair working like this, long hours, especially for those who never been in this field before
And treating them like that, "scolding", "demanding"
We ain't professionals, we're just college students
Why doing all these making ourselves suffer like this?

Complaining about how big they did this, why making everyone and themselves suffer
Complaining among few of them, complaining with my parents
“他们有心做就好” said my dad..... somehow my anger just fades away
He's right, at least they are serious and have the passion in doing something
Not doing something just for doing something

No matter how, things have to go on anyway

Long and late working hours, sleepless nights, tough and rough works
And again, time is the main reason why my parents tell me not to continue in this after I graduate
I hate it too, and I'm not smart in solving problems, not good in communicating
5 days of shooting days, went home late, very VERY late
Parents are angry, mum is angry, dad is very angry, even said he wanna scold the team leaders
It made me pissed. But.. well.. he's my dad, he's just worried, that's all I can say

After a few days, after day 3, mum suddenly asked me, "you like to do this?"
I don't know what to say, should I say yes? "........ok lor..."
I don't dare to say that I actually like it, 'cause I'm not allow to do this anymore
But I know she (they) know I love this too. If only the working time is not like this....

A few mistakes and clumsiness, my bad, I am clumsy
Tried to get along, tried to participate and help as much as possible
I don't want to miss all of these moments even though it's all sweaty and tough work



Been struggling to find where do I belong
I wanted to have a band, but I never met anyone with the same interest up till now
I wanted to be a hair dresser, a hair stylist, mum doesn't allow, as a main job
I wanted to study fine arts, financial problems, thanks a lot

Multimedia design, is it really the right choice? Am still thinking this every day

As I mentioned previously before, because of mmd, I've messed up my thoughts
I've "forgotten" what I wanted previously, music, painting, drawing...
But because of mmd, I'm starting to like production
I don't know a lot of things related to production, I don't watch movies frequently
I don't know who's the director producers dp, I don't know well-known production groups
I don't know local production companies and crews
All I know is I enjoyed looking at everyone working serious hard for the same aim
Which is why I love my drama club life during secondary school


12 people in a group, 8 of them since diploma, know two of them only in advance diploma, and one more recently
Other than one of the two girls I've always group with, I barely have any reaaally memorable memory with the others
They went out quite frequently, but it is always either movie or buffet
Which for me is... luxurious stuffs, wasting money *cough*
And most of the time is night time or late night, which I'm not allowed to

Been thinking, I'm going to graduate soon
Am I really going to just graduate like this without any memorable memories with my classmates?
I have some good memories during primary school, but not in secondary school (well.. maybe there are a couple of good ones)
But I didn't have this touching or "I don't want this to end" feeling at all, except for drama club
For college life, I only have memories with just the few of them
Is it going to be the same? Not much feeling when I graduate?
This ain't worth it...

I just love people who makes people laugh even though it's just teasing or stupid, they're just trying to make people laugh
Because of this assignment and the crazy few of them who love video making
I get to have this 5-day awesome memories with them
I may not be talkative or not sociable etc, but I'll be one of the audience that laugh the loudest
Really appreciate it...

It's not fully done yet actually, there's still post production, but oh well... :x



Not So Smart -end- (?)



.....and now there's other few things not done yet what the fuaaaa~k!

Friday, November 9, 2012

-

"......what's next? I'm bored :|"

This is what i typed to end the previous post




And now i'm taking it back. ._.

Friday, November 2, 2012

car waaaash

这个fundraising终于完了啊... Splash Hour car wash...
本来一直自己在烦垃圾,自己一直pekcek
不怎么期待着过这三天的,不过怎么知道还蛮不错的~

没有跟那班人合作过,“pro人”,陌生人酱
怎么知道他们也是一班废人!一班废人+另一班废人=更加废!
虽然是粗工,不过一直笑死我,这三天都过得不错!

幸好姐的jimui's bf有酱的公司,他的sis'未婚夫也是好人
提供我们道具用品等,省了不少!

唔.... 最后都没有大合照...



......what's next? I'm bored :|

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

10

感动,想哭,但一直保持平常心
还是一样,我不能像以前那样,癫不到像以前那样了,陌生了....
(除非有我熟的一班咯...咳)

Form2年底加入,form5年头/年中退出“一半”

Form4时最精彩,虽然有不开心的还有误会....
之前都是每天一直想着跟大家一起的日子,可以讲简直不理戏剧以外的人
一直都在想,如果其他人(包括家人)都像戏剧的人能癫,想法像他们那样就好
只专注在它上面,学业都不怎么理(不会留级的,算啦... 当时的想法)
5e9(当时上课地点)可以讲是属于我们的,很多次下课都去那边
买了食物放进pocket还是怎样收好,瞒着/避开pengawas
就在那教室里吃,lepak

最记得一次不懂是什么的pelantikan,我们差不多四五个躲去里面ponteng(酱显...)
没有开灯,讲话很小声,躲在5e9很~~~~里面
突然间有人开门!全部pause着不出声,躲在黑暗中.....原来是自己人!!!
过后又有一次,又是自己人!
怎么大家那么有默契都来这里躲了~~?

有时放学后没有上戏剧课或排戏都好,没事做都好
都会故意留校,在5e9呆着,买东西在里面吃,聊天拍照
把椅子排在一起,躺在一起讲废话
.........

那时都一直带着相机一直拍照,留念
还没backup,姐姐的电脑坏了.....
不过幸好以前有upload去photobucket放在以前的blog!
而且之前有放在facebook,学弟妹save了
不过也好,因为facebook那个album我不懂去年还是几时delete了......

.............


我......可是“练”了“很久”,忍了几年,什么舞台剧都不看(而且贵...)
才不去想以前在戏剧组的日子......
你们做么要这样对我........




那本手册,那天只看了第一面和后面的照片,今天才有空看玩整本
有东西错了咯...
开始那个“timeline”,2007有teatime,不过很差因为导演演员换完kek水
“回忆录”的first page,2005=2006,2006=2007...
3rd page,2006上面小品的=2005,2007比赛的=2006
咳咳.....


............明明你们以前是那么小只那么矮那么圆那么静
现在竟然那么高那么瘦演技那么好......



byebye.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Meaningful present?

Saw Chiing asked "What is the most meaningful present you've received before?" in her blog

(typed a bunch of things, listed who and when and what present
but deleted them all 'cause feel like too lebih)



This is the most meaningful present I had
by my sis when i was 14, still wearing it now...

Next will be the angpau my grandma gave me this year, plus the last photo taken with her...


.....bye.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

-

已经一点半了可是没有睡意 (.....其实是刚才吃太饱了,睡不下 -_-)
前几天去叔叔家量体重.....又变回重了,不懂该开心还是什么 -_-
明明减少食量了的啦... 不过刚才食欲又回来了,会加几kg叻...?!zzzz

上两个礼拜很emo,钱真的是会弄人pekcek啊...
上个礼拜突然要画人,可是还是会画眼睛罢了...

而且又画到变成漫画人物酱...
明明讲要练习画,可是也是讲罢了
半途而废~~~ (半途而废~~iieeeiieehh 你无所谓~~ ieeeiiehhh)-_-


婆婆走了100天
外婆走了4年
外公走了10~12年
公公不懂走了N年,没见过

到了这个年龄真的是看着一个个走了
朋友婆婆,姐姐几个朋友的婆婆,妈妈同事的,爸爸朋友的
真的是....噢...
以前外公走的时候没有什么感觉的(还小?),不过外婆走的时候....
虽然她早就该走了(本来进医院差点走但又救回了)
不过活着也是受苦罢了,最后变成皮包骨
....走的那时期在考percubaan tiam.... -_-

Hmm... 好像是姑婆走的时候才感觉到一个人真正走了的感觉
明明昨天才进医院才去看她罢了,第二天就走了...?

婆婆就可惜... 从来没有穿冷衣从来没有生病
就突然发烧生病,厕所晕倒吓死爸爸,送进医院
没事了,好了,健康了
半年后又发作了,姐姐也在现场吓死他
送进医院,stable了,那时我做工不能去看
第二天去看她,有讲到一点话
医生讲有tuber,之前就有record了可是之前的医生没有讲(扑.....)
进院几天后脑就死了,心脏就靠机器活,就这样撑几天
每天上课都standby着电话打来,终于有一天上课上到一半姐
那时还没走的,赶回到家,姐又打来,讲走了,不用赶了....

.....人生就是生老病死(要不然就生直接死 -_-)唉

......吸烟真的害死身边的人啊... 吸到酱爽,中tuber的不是你,反而是身边的人

看到最心痛的就是爸爸... 1.孤儿 2.长子
最大的都是要坚强,两个弟弟都哭了,他都不哭
四个人之间看亲情戏最会流泪的就是他,你讲,那几天他怎么忍?
看到他一下子忍不住爆了一点的时候最心疼

emo了几个月,虽然已经过了100多天,但还是觉得很假
人/生物/生命就这样没了?想回看着她躺在那边,觉得很奇怪
本来活生生的人,就这样躺着不会动了
更其怪是火葬,就这样变成了骨灰

......不敢想像如果轮到我和姐时会怎样
真的不想长大啊扑街....


........半夜就是容易搞emo?-_-

Thursday, September 27, 2012

120927


今天的天空很蓝很美,云也很大朵但没拍到 :(

才week2罢了就病了,去到学校整个死鱼酱(爬山叻... ._.")
不过幸好一天就好了,GOOD!!!


想idea... 想到什么垃圾都好,都是好事
最衰是脑怎样转都好,一个东西都想不到
这才痛苦...


这个学期也许又会莫名其妙减几公斤....

Bored

......and running away from stress just for a few minutes
answer random questions from chiing's blog


1.   Why did you decide to make a blog?
Because i don't speak my probs, not good in speaking. lol.

2.   Favourite food?
Cake. With chocolate. and mousse. and cream.

3.   What colour are your room walls?
White. plain. white.

4.   Oreos or choc chip cookies, and WHY?
Chocolate chips cookies. i like chocochip.

5.   Your dream date?
Amusement park i guess? Lol i think it's the only thing that can distract me from awkwardness? Wth

6.   Best feature in a guy, explain your dream guy!
Ikuta Toma + Mukai Osamu + Miyavi. C:
Height? (is this even a feature?) Taller than me, looks huger than me

7.   Western or Asian make-ups?
Asian. But i rarely wear make up. So, bye.

8.   Your current favourite piece of clothing/accessory/shoes?
That RM5 old cloth pant that i cut off it's legs. looks old and lehfeh but comfy ma. cincai la.

9.   Your favourite chocolate, or your favourite fruit? Maybe both?
I don't know... as long as it is choco cake or cookie or beverage, it's fine (it has to taste good too of course)
Fruit? Apple.

10. Favourite fast food outlet? Or favourite place to eat?
A&W. but long time no go there liao

11. The place that you most want to travel to?
Japan lor.



Podoki's questions

1. What is the best drama that makes you cry/laugh the hardest?
There ARE dramas that made me cry hard and laugh hard buuuuuut i forgot what drama ==

2. Imagine yourself as a cartoon character, who do you wanna be?
......dororo..... Q_Q or Tsukasa

3. Long hair or short hair? Which one do you prefer?
SHORT! but not tooooo short la

4. Who is your favourite model?
No one

5. Define the hottest guy you've ever met? (Or any celebrity)
MIYAVI

6. Your favourite place to hang out?
Those small tea house or restaurant like 康成....? Or playground. lol.

7. Do you have a pet? or What kinda pet do you wanna have?
No. :( I want a black cat. or a dog. 
if it's small, i want something like shih tzu, if it's big, i want sheepdog. haha.

8. Describe your best friend.
My sister. :) AWWWWW C:

9. Heels or sneakers? Why?
Sneakers. because i'm more comfortable with it.

10. List three people that you respect the most in your life.
My mum. my sis. my dad.

11. List two places that you will never visit them again.
I can't remember, maybe that's how i never visit them? -_-

Ok bye.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

宇宙のまほう

Saw this pic that Motokatsu retweeted


What's yours? :3

Friday, August 24, 2012

从考完试到现在,脑都好像没有休息过酱,一直在想未来
从小学接近中学,中学到现在,还在想未来
不过怎么想都好,发生的都是不一样的

(注意:又来讲废话了,you may leave now zzz)


讲来讲去,我就是像在埋怨在后悔在自责还是什么垃圾都好,总之是不能再回头的
现在,又来"埋怨"吗?


十二岁时认定了自己将来会是美发师,也许能帮自己的偶像弄头发
认定了自己会在个乐团里的吉他手,一起跟团友创作,有名了可能有得跟偶像同台演出或认识他们的
(怎么都是为了见到自己的偶像啊 -_-)
不过久了真的很想成为美发师和吉他手呢...

上中学期望着遇到志同好友听日文的
也加入了学校吉他学会,有了第一把吉他
不过.. Classical... 我要电子...
而且教到很慢,也不喜欢那些人,还没过一年就退出,就这样在也没有碰这把吉他了

中学生涯大多数人家都过得很快乐,我...?
只能怪自己太介意一些小事,不咭咋,form3直接锁着自己一整天在班睡觉搞emo,人家没用理我,我也就不lebih去找他们
讨厌去学校,很浪费时间,每天在班睡觉,其实在偷哭(WTF演戏咩)
这也变成了习惯,不想讲太话多理酱多(不过过后也蛮痛苦下的wtf)
开心的时候就只是在跟戏剧那班人一起的时候,真的笑死我
一心恶搞搞笑的都是为了让大家笑,form4的时候自己也一起癫
曾经想过,如果下次当舞台剧演员,应该也不错吧...?
不过这只持续了一年,form5因突然太压力就退出"一半"
(讲退出后的心情真的是轻松到不懂怎样讲)
每个星期都有排我的戏,第一部也是最后一部篇导的小剧
(妈的以前曾经yeng一阵子,现在缩到胆小到死)

每次讲到戏剧就很想讲很多,但来来去去都是一样的东西 (不止戏剧咯..)

上了学院又再加入了,怎么知道已经没有那热诚了
很佩服现在还在半读半演的他们,肯牺牲时间和精神和体力,我已经做不到了
(也因为懒,我承认 ==)
就这样再也没有看舞台剧,也没有联络他们了
不过看到他们fb的照片,是很羡慕一下的..... (又来羡慕?!)

还没进中学时就决定了进art class
因为姐姐的班是学校认定的垃圾班,所以也已经有心里准备会很少人进这班
心里只想,下次往的方向只想在设计等艺术界
还记得班同学问我做么要进artclass,因为对大家而言这垃圾班的都是没用的
全班只有我一个决定读这班,只是很无奈的"微笑"讲我喜欢
我可不要像他们一些只因为不想被歧视而进自己没有能力进的
去了artclass跟一位小学认识的好友和小学认识但中学才变好友,过后三条水就变成好友,但这不是重点 ==
幸运的,我们是中华最后一年的art class
本来有Science Economy Arts,现在只有Science Account,E变去A
讲artclass垃圾... 学校自己又没有重视美术艺术,基本上只有提供一点美术没有艺术的东西
但是那间bilik seni只是专门给kelab seni的人用罢了,如果不是因为那个seni projek我们都没有去的
以前妈妈学校的artclass真的有教画画,学很多东西的....
讲artclass垃圾.. 我家的都是artclass出来的呢!爸爸以前的工赞,妈妈的工型,姐姐还是不错的programmer
Spm成绩很普通,少了自己目标1个A,不过也很开心了
尤其是看到一些不是art的人少A过我,特别爽,歧视什么屁

头发... 小时后就很想留长发(小时候是“女”的 -_-)
但小学要申请的,所以中学就留长,久了发现真的很麻烦,还是短发好 ==
不过从小就喜欢弄头发,每次都玩堂妹的头发因为很长
12岁,上面写了,因为偶像因为GLAY的HISASHI的发型(♥),想当理发师美发师,觉得发型真的很重要
本来都没被反抗的,也许有机会真的学理发,15岁买了RM169的一set烫板(现在跌价了...)
前面的头发都自己剪,偶尔在学校会帮一位朋友去厕所修头发,但都不是很好...
有时也帮姐姐修 (感谢她们做实验品 lol)
Form4想弄AnCafeMIKU的发型,结果那个人跟我弄到样衰到死,吹头发又粗鲁
(他故意的咯因为我摆丑脸,因为他弄到样衰!)
从此我就很少去saloon剪头发了,自己也开始自己动手剪,form5一直变长变短 lol
前几年本来还有的但关店了,每次看那些理发师剪的动作自己都会记住
帮姐姐修整头长发,自己剪的时候也比较上手了,染发也自己染
女生头发剪过了,男生头发还没减过啊!手痒ing lol
..........对了,syok sendiri到忘了讲
还没上学院前应该也是form4 form5酱,竟然开始一直在persuade我不要学理发
1.没有假期 2.手会烂(这个就真的啦..朋友的手也烂)
每次在看理发学院学费的价钱,哪里有得学,但没得学了...
之前有看到电视理发不懂什么外国理发节目,看到真是.... 无奈...

吉他... 因为自己中学只会emo
已经浪费了我的岁月,要不然现在应该很强了咯顶
不过只怪过去,有什么用?
Form5因为认识了X JAPAN和hide,又再次碰那把吉他了
弹回以前刚开始学的歌,TMD几时变得酱够死鬼容易?
以前觉得蛮复杂的... 主要原因:懒!不过到现在还是很差水,还是因为懒
但现在还是有练啦!~_~
等SPM成绩时打工,拿薪水了存了一笔钱,终于买了一set便宜电吉他
当时的心情爽到无法形容...

以为上了学院又再希望遇到志同好友,但到现在还是没有
每次看人家现场演出都看到想哭因为自己也想像他们那样做自己喜欢的事
上次终于在论坛问,过了很久才有两三个回我
不过地点不同,音乐品味不同,也没有时间,算了吧...
过后去von那边classic那边打工,她们都是追星的,而且有人喜欢GLAY,所以过得蛮开心的
过后也去乐器音乐店打工,学了少少东西,不过那边工作莫名的压力就不做了

说真的,最近有放弃gap band的念头
反而想专注在自己之前另一个梦想,纯美术,但也不完全是...
Form5到底是什么弄到我想接触纯美术?用paper clay来弄art project
那次也自己试看弄一架小吉他,不过不完美而且断了
那次只后就很想玩黏土弄雕像模型(本来就喜欢小模型,可爱:x),也想画油画...

本来就因为form5做了art project,自己竟然想去读纯美术
本来已经决定了去dasein,怎么知道临时又因为学费问题,又去拉曼了
本来已经决定了要去拉曼读GD,怎么知道他们一知道MMD比较多出路,就...
那时我可吵了不少哭了不少... 显掉...
看到读艺术学院的朋友,又羡慕又幸好
羡慕,因为学很多而且不会酱迷失方向
幸好,因为压力没那么大(那边会有人心机重到陷害对方....)

上了学院一开始是有画画...
有一科intro to art,那个老师真的是显到整科也跟着显
不过有去画展... 弄到我更想接触油画,不过... 算了吧
另一科intro to illustration有一个功课是要画graffiti(也不算.. 画在canvas...)
那个assignment上颜色上漆到很爽...!
有一次不懂做什么research会找graffiti,认识了Bansky
本来就佩服那些画graffiti的人,这次找到他了,更喜欢street art了
想尝试是怎样的,今年生日终于试了,很noob,不过也是爽

读了三年多,学的大部分都是电脑的...
有一科是拍video,虽然拍前麻烦,但觉得拍的过程很爽
就这样开始往这行走,参加一些比赛拿经验,连intern也去production house做...
不过在intern时发现自己竟然比较喜欢grip&gaffer那些粗工,又多东西学
art department也很厉害,不懂他们在哪里找那些东西....

..........久了后,回到学院,才发现自己已经不懂走到哪里去了
不知不觉已经被现实盲目,迷失方向
明明是读MMD,就是包括音乐,怎么没想过去music studio/recording studio intern?
明明喜欢音乐,喜欢吉他,会玩吉他,有作曲,怎么没想过.....?!
就因为那科assingnment拍video觉得不错,就去这行intern?
就因为没有学没有教音乐有关的,就忘了自己喜欢音乐?
明明都没有关注影片行的东西或幕后,最多只懂TimBurton,本地最多只懂舞台剧演员
而且这次intern... 浪费了,没得继续这行了... 时间不定,家规必听从...
.........怎么没有想到去studio... 真的... 太笨太迟钝了.........

................

眼前越多选择,越不知道要做什么.....
也许自己喜欢这几样喜欢得不够...?
不过到现在还想做啊.....

他们说,下次读完了出来找了工,想学什么自己在去学
找工.... 我要找什么工?已经不知道了
以前还没上学院时,曾经说不要一直对着电脑,现在给她讲我每天对着电脑
......当时是谁说,电脑会变得越来越重要
如果我不是读这科..... 也许就不会这样

........真的是要跟人家打工当designer吗...?没新创意,动作慢,能吗...?
只想表达自己对这个世界的想法,人类的想法,自己本身的想法
靠自己的双手,靠画,靠音乐....


.........


你,虽然生活都那么苦,但小时后过得开心,而且有得自己选自己的路,一直爬算是有点达到“梦想”
应该不了解我们的心情到底是怎样,但一直面对经济问题,也不能怪你现实....

你,生活也苦,慢慢爬累积了经验,成功了好几次,但就因为一次失败而差不多破产欠债
一直有梦想一直再试,怎么知道一直被信任的伙伴给骗,不幸又欠更多债了....

身边有两个例子给我看,给我知道不可以太信任一个人
身边有两个例子给我看,知道他们为我们的好
但是面对这个社会,真的不知道该怎样
想像他那样追求梦想,但不想像他的下场
不想像她那样,但稳定的工作和薪水....


一直在想,如果不打工,下次该怎样生活?
参加比赛?有很多比赛要给钱的.. 而且不一定赢
放自己的画在展览?也是要钱啊.....
什么都要钱......
share自己的画给自己出名?lol又不是画到很好... paiseh nia
.........好烦



本来是很够死鬼烦,画了画,竟然比较没那么烦了
...........也不懂烦来做么,想来做么
怎样想怎样烦都好,最后也没得自己选
最后变成很多“本来”什么什么的

...........

年纪小小就成功的人,我好羡慕你
能做自己喜欢的事的人,我也羡慕你
没有自己梦想的人,我更羡慕你不用烦


有得读书,是幸福的,有酱的家人,也是幸福的
不过有时太亲也不是好事...
.....真的不喜欢在家排行最小,负担



好了,写够了。

Friday, August 17, 2012

又放假了

关了这里几个礼拜,因为那科要开blog的关系... 保护我的私隐!
(在网上要有私隐?慢慢等)
不过也不用紧啦... 又不是很多人看,开不开update不update都是syok sendiri的 ~_~

在这期间都有写东西,大部分都是... MIYAVI(呃呵~)
现在每天还在听他的歌,要死...

「僕の苦しみが君の幸せなら 何だって喜んで受け入れてみせるさ
........ いつまでも僕は君だけのSuper Hero」― Super Hero
WAAA 要死啊!每次听到这句就冷掉!
如果MIYAVI有人唱这个给我我就立刻晕掉!!
还没有post这首,下次post :3
(上次很期待他会不会唱这首,哪里懂没有!伤心!)

本来这个之前有一个post,不过delete了
.....只想说,别做伤害自己的傻事来发泄
不要太重视或依赖任何人,下次会伤得很重....
朋友们... 不要让我心脏病发作啊..... 我受不了.....

"@MIYAVI_OFFICIAL nothin more precious than an attitude to pursue a dream in life. nobody has the right to stop it. 溢れ出る情熱は誰にも止められないっ!!!!!"
赞同,不过.............. 好难,而且不现实
什么都半桶水,又没有一笔资金

毕业了,打工.... 打什么工?
做PA不dim,太noob
做designer也不dim,太慢
................

想到处游荡到处参观,增加自己的知识寻找灵感
不过都是需要一笔钱,能去看这个,下一个想去也没钱去了

...........我要看演唱会
一定要去到GLAY的演唱会....
不想像爸爸酱没有机会去看RollingStones...

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

7

Finally posting this.... (ehem...)


New singles x 2 produced by HISASHI and JIRO....
New album x 2
Arena Tour (this tak kisah)
World Tour.....
Hakodate live (this also tak kisah)
20th Anniversary live at Tokyo Dome.....
EXPO....


KILL ME PLEEEEAAAAASE!!!!!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

那天跟班上的人去巴生,目的?吃螃蟹
人生中真正来讲,除了蛋糕甜品点心那些经常想吃的,引诱到我的
其他喜欢吃的好像日本餐或意大利面等,都没怎么常想
本身曾经脸上很够死鬼多pimple,现在比较好罢了
连虾和sotong我都戒了不敢吃,何况是螃蟹那么少吃的贵耶?


(左边的,第一口的感觉简直是幸福到我不懂要怎样讲,因为好像有cake味,不过在大庭广众... 反应夸张就不好啦...
哪里知道戴基突然也讲有cake味!ohoh~我是正常的 ~_~)

之前他们很多次都有去吃buffet我都没去,很贵啊...
平时跟家人都没有酱常去吃buffet或贵耶
“吃那么贵的东西,有必要吗...?也不是吃罢了...”
看戏也少,一张票十多块... 存起来能吃几餐.... 和买专辑....
(反问自己:“买那么贵的专辑,有必要吗?”)
有!食物吃了也是酱排泄出来罢了!
专集是拿来收集也可以当着投资 *o*
(感觉上好像有被人guat着... 不要打我啊....)


不够样衰... 有点显掉一下....

不过明年快要毕业了... 有什么能参与的就尽量参与吧
不过这个trip... 花了差不多80块酱.... *喷血*
各位... 咱们还没出来工作... 怎么你们那么肯花那么多啊...
我就因为这样,已经没有买专辑或什么收藏品了....
呃....!*捶胸口,自尽*

明年GLAY会有world tour.... 矛盾的心情.... 因为明年去英国....
ARGHHH!! Do you know what I mean?? Huh? HUUUH???
然后2014年就是他们20周年... 又在TokyoDome....
我一定要去啊TMF!! 钱啊!!!!!! 没有income,怎样存到酱多?!!
Do you know how I feel?? HUUUHH???

.........平时不能在外面癫这些东西真是痛苦
谁能了解?? 等下给人家扁或被ignore罢了 是不是? T.T
只能在家乱叫,在家也没有人了解,因为姐姐是工作人士了!
从中学form4 form5的时候就有这种没钱要死的感觉(wtf?)
现在... 现在........
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

.......

回到现实, 这个拜六还有下个礼拜有两天考试
第一科应该ok,第三科也应该ok,第二科fukthisshit.....
看着那些notes真的很想反台!!! 贡马盖噢?!!
为了这个文凭.... 这个..... ugggghhhhh!!!

........

毕业出来要作么好?
可以不要帮人打工吗....?


算了,继续听MIYAVI的歌,继续温书
刚好现在play着上一篇的"Shelter" ♥
还会再spamMIYAVI的歌的,放心....
^^ (不能顶啊这个emoticon实在太欠打了)

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Shelter by MIYAVI

Sorry, it's MIYAVI again :3 



(can't decide which should I put, only is audio quality better
one is video quality super good and his kept smiling so cute plus no make up hehe
so i just put both :3)

Yeah, it's freakin' boring
There is nothing to get rollin'
Can't stop zoning out
All goin' same ol' blah blah

Even though in here we got everything but no freedom.
"Gimme more freedom"

Dreamin' in this small kingdom

The watch is tickin'
Toy monkeys are diggin' n lickin'
That freaky creepy play makin' me crazy dizzy

Feelin' like it
A doll in the shop window

I'm not here
"I don't fuckin' belong here"
"I don't fuckin' belong here"
"I don't fuckin' belong here"

Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
to the unknown wonderland from this plastic world
Cryin' out in my heart

"Get me out of control"
"Get me out of control"
"Get me out of control"
"Get me out of control"
"Get me out of control"
"Get me out of control"

Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
To the unknown wonderland from this plastic world
Cryin' out in my heart.

So now, kick the door and scream to the world.
Like this

Sunday, August 5, 2012

24/7 random


Found this when I was checking my notebook
Drew this on 24/7 during research's lecture class...
Which I just went to see Miyavi's performance during the opening ceremony of Tokyo Street 1st Anniversary....
Which is... is... so... so....... surreal.....


Mi... Mi... Miyavi!!!! *shivers*





"ZZZ.... Sleepy...."

".....MIYAVI....!!" DX




....man.. it still feels like dream... DX

Saturday, August 4, 2012

咲き誇る華の様に-Neo Visualizm- by MIYAVI




Kanji

踏みにじられたって むしりとられたって 咲き誇ってりゃいい
信じ続ければいい 雨降んなくっても 日が当たんなくっても

X、ルナシーに黒夢、先輩方が残した道しるべ 絶やさないように 壊せ Irony
俺らが守らなきゃなんない未来(dream)
これでも本気でやってんだ 全部失う覚悟で唄ってんだ
Don't hinder, Get out of here 見た目で決めんな (ってか鼻からナメんな)

ま、でもファンで、チークにマスケラ 「化粧とったら (誰か) わかりませんから」
まず見た目から でスキルも空って、それじゃマズイでしょ尚更
ファンが誇れる Big Artist に 胸張って言える様な History にする為に
Hey ya buddy u got ready?攻めてくぜ Main stream 飛ばすぜ Victory road

格好もジャンルも関係ねぇ んなもん脱いじゃえよ NANTENE
ブチ壊せよ常識の防波堤 そろそろ火をつけましょ導火線
Hurry hurry but, Don't worry 失敗してもいいさ こんな風に
やったモン勝ちだぜ Just do it 何度でも so 雑草の様に

踏みにじられたって むしりとられたって 咲き誇ってりゃいい
信じ続ければいい 雨降んなくっても 日が当たんなくっても
涼しい顔して 知らん顔してさ 道に迷ったって誰かに聞けばいい
夢見失ったってまた目を閉じればいい
そしていつかまた咲いてやるのさ 大きく手を広げて

鹿鳴館、AREAにサイバー&ON AIR WEST 気づきゃ青春も迎春もいずこへ
進め西へ東へ 夢も希望も機材者(van)に載せて走った Highway
あれから何が変わっただろう 逆に何が変わらず残っただろう
あの頃に戻れねーならもう一度作るしかねーだろ?
On the long and winding road 振り返ってる暇もねーだろ Bro.

俺らまだまだ人生の On the way そやって壁作るだけじゃ損じゃね?
あれこれ考えてもしょうがねぇから 出たとこ勝負で行こう Buddy
アレアレ?どうしたの急に踊りだしたぜ keep on moving.
その花咲かせ 今夜中に 新世紀終わっちゃうぜ bloomin'

踏みにじられたって むしりとられたって 咲き誇ってりゃいい
信じ続ければいい 雨降んなくっても 日が当たんなくっても
涼しい顔して 知らん顔してさ 道に迷ったって誰かに聞けばいい
夢見失ったってまた目を閉じればいい
そしていつかまた咲いてやるのさ 大きく手を広げて
陽の光の差す方へ



Romaji

Fumi nijiraretatte mushiri torarettatte sakihokotterya ii
shinji tsuzukereba ii ame funnakuttemo hi ga atannakuttemo

X, RUNASHII ni kuroyume, senpai kata ga nokoshita michi shirube
tayasanai you ni kowase Irony
orera ga mamoranakya nan nai mirai (dream)
koredemo honki de yatte n da zenbu ushinau kakugo de utatte n da
Don't hinder. Get out of here
mita me de kimenna (tte ka hana kara NAME n na)

Ma, demo FANDE, CHIIKU ni MASUKARA
"keshou tottara (dareka) wakarimasen kara"
mazu mita me kara de SUKIRU mo karatte, sore ja MAZUI desho naosara
FAN ga hokoreru Big Artist ni
mune hatte ieru you na History ni suru tame ni
Hey ya buddy u got ready?
semeteku ze Main stream tobasu ze Victory road

Kakkou mo JANRU mo kankei nee n namon nuijae yo NANTENE
BUCHI kowase yo joushiki no bouhatei soro soro hi o tsukemasho doukasen
Hurry hurry but, Don't worry shippai shitemo ii sa konna fuu ni
yatta MON kachi da ze Just do it nondo demo so zassou no you ni

Fumi nijiraretatte mushiri torarettatte sakihokotterya ii
shinji tsuzukereba ii ame funnakuttemo hi ga atannakuttemo
suzushii kao shite shiran kao shite sa michi ni mayottatte dareka ni kikeba ii
yumemi ushinattatte mata me o tojireba ii
soshite itsuka mata saite yaru no sa ookiku te o hirogete

Rokumeikan, AREA ni SAIBAA & ON AIR WEST
kizukya seishun mo geishun mo izuko e
susume nishi e higashi e yume mo kibou mo kizaisha (van) ni nosete hashitta Highway
are kara nani ga kawatta darou gyaku ni nanika kawarazu nokotta darou
ano goro ni modorenee nara mou ichi do tsukuru shika nee daro?
On the long and winding road furi kaetteru hima mo nee daro Bro.

Orera mada mada jinsei no On the way soyatte kabe tsukuru dake ja son ja ne?
are kore kangaetemo shou ga nee kara deta toko shoubu de ikou Buddy
AREARE? doushita no kyuu ni odori dashita ze keep on moving.
sono hana sakase konyachuu ni shinseiki owacchau ze bloomin'

Fumi nijiraretatte mushiri torarettatte sakihokotterya ii
shinji tsuzukereba ii ame funnakuttemo hi ga atannakuttemo
suzushii kao shite shiran kao shite sa michi ni mayottatte dareka ni kikeba ii
yumemi ushinattatte mata me o tojireba ii
soshite itsuka mata saite yaru no sa ookiku te o hirogete
You no hikari no sasu hou e




Translation

You are trampled, or plucked,
You can blossom again, just keep on believing in it.

X, Luna Sea and Kuroyume - that's the way that my seniors left me
We have to save our future and
Break the irony without rooting it out.
Well I'm serious in my own way and
I'm singing being ready to loose everything
Don't hinder, get out of here
Just don't decide everything by our appearance (well, just don't make a fool of us)

But yeah, foundation cream, make-up and mascara - "if we take off the make-up you won't recognize us"
That's why everything starts with good-looking but
It's awkward when your skill is poor...
For becoming "big artist" that my fans can be proud of, to tell my history forthrightly,
Hey ya buddy u got ready? Make the mainstream better, Speed up the victory road!

Doesn't matter what kind of music do you play and how you look like
Take off that shit and break the common knowledge,
Light the leading way!
Hurry hurry but don't worry. you are allowed to make mistake like that
Only who does smth can become a winner, just do it
Like a weed,
and even if for many times...

You are trampled, or plucked,
You can blossom again, just keep on believing in it.
Even if it isn't raining or there is no sun
Look calm, like you don't care.
If you lost your way, just ask smb
If you lost your dream, just close your eyes again
And some day you will blossom, with your hands wide spread

Kagoshima, areas, "saiba" and on air west
And I noticed that I couldn't understand where is my youth and when did the new year begin,
Keep on going West and East!
That's the highway on which I drove with all my dreams and hope.
What has changed since that? And what remained?
If we can't go back, all we have to do is just make the new road, cause
On the long and winding road there is no time to look back

We are still on our life-road
Don't you think that you can just loose everything if you always make that deadlocks,
Nothing will change if you are just thinking everything over, so let's just begin fighting, buddy
Oh, well, you started dancing, keep on moving
Blossom your flower tonight, otherwise the new century will end

Even if you are trampled, or being plucked
You can blossom again, keep on believing in it
Even if it isn't raining or there is no sun
Look calm, like you don't care
If you lost your way, just ask smb
If you lost your dream, just close your eyes again
And some day you will blossom again, with your hands wide spread
to the sun...




Friday, August 3, 2012

120803 Lapsap

It's been a crazy month, two crazy weeks, a crazy semester
A crazy semester for me, but this one is dai sei coz i go find part time job last time, but quit already (phew)
A crazy month (July) also two crazy weeks, rushing assignments (and concert)


Domino's pizza is ♥

Last week and this week, everyone have very less sleep time because of assignments
Less than 5 hours of sleep everyday, EVERYDAY...
Everyone gathered in one of our friend's house and just work on the stupid assignment
WHICH! the assignment has very little marks!! but it made us near to death...
Even though it's week 13 and week 14 which are the two final weeks of a semester
suddenly few assignments (4 or 5 i think?) pop up together, and we finish them in two weeks...
Sacrificing our sleep time... unhealthy...

And last week while we were rushing assignments, I still went to see Miyavi...
I know I know very qian da.. but... really nan de...!! :x
But didnt 100% enjoy the show 'cause super tired... during the concert don't have energy to cheer and jump
Jump until my legs feel like cramping... but very happy I get to see him in person until wan heart attack but too tired liao so no energy to cause heart attack -_-
After that back home take bath terus rush to do assignment until the next morning...
Before my turn to start working, I watch the video I've recorder to syok sendiri
Mana tau blur until cannot control the volume properly until it boost to the highest volume -______-|||||||
........work until the next morning.. so geng la, everyone become super zombies -_-"

While frustrating with assignments, noticed something bad happened to SOMEONE
Made myself no mood lo, and very shocked when I "suspect" what had happened
Something is missing, something that is, i mean was, important to you, gone
No comment or "likes" from him anymore, which you both use to always do ...
Even though you dun wan tell me, I still suspect that's the only thing most possible but still hoping not true
And when saw the blog entry, terus 飚泪 lor why want do stupid thing...
But then you say you didn't do then ok lor... I TRUST YOU!!! lol
Now 真相大白 le, let me guess right liao... Nevermind la you still have us and your family ^^
(だから愛情がちょっと怖かった、全然触らない って ~_~)

Back to assignments...
Because of my family rules, I had never stay overnight at other people's house
This time, this assignment... had to do this... really ki siao 'cause the total of this assignment mark is very low!
But not bad la good experience and it's very funny to see everyone look like zombie and start to kisiao... *cough*
But this assignment really.... reallly..... stupid subject i hate HATE business!!
Go and check my weight and I lost around 3kg.... I should be happy 'cause this is the weight I supposed to have
BUT lose the weight in THIS WAY? No... fuk no.... so unhealthy...


This semester every since I was sick last two months, I've moved my workplace into my room
coz i thought it's more convenient I can terus sleep after doing my work...
but NO! there's no more space after I put the laptop and chargers plugs etc
And just throw my bags on the floor which made it hard to walk out from the room
Memang lapsap room... well my room is very small so.. hard to become tidy when there's so many lebih punya barang..
If only my mum would let me remove the bed and only left the mattress and pillows....


Last week mum helped me to clear my original workplace beside the living room
Was planning to only clear it during the semester break, but... thanks to my mum :x
Added more stuffs on the wall but it looks messy.. :( (U4 colour studies' stuffs ^^)
(oooohhh Miyavi's ticket on the top! other tickets at the bottom.... :x)
And the table become messy again after she just cleaned the table...
All thanks to assignments...


Last minute only think of using stencils for my promo design, but too late la
Plus my design are too small so it's hard to do this way...
Only can syok sendiri.... and spray to cover 瑕疵 only...


Actually i don't want to update and write so many lapsap, but somehow I just type it like this
Cannot control my brain and fingers... no choice...
Aiya tak kisah la i always syok sendiri talk to myself here, sudah biasa -_-
just now say I want to sleep before 10pm, now sudah 10pm++... sien...

....it's good that my promo design had good feedbacks from the tutors
Had to make it as perfect as possible so that my cgpa won't drag down a lot...
especially because of that subject.... and that another subject.... and ANOTHER subject...
But it's still not perfect... typo error.. and some other minor mistakes...
ahhh whatever.

.......thinking back again.... what "artwork" have we done in this semester....?
Only one.....? ZZZ


......byebye. lol.


p/s: still having Miyavi drugs.....

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

MIYAVI....?!!

**Note: Long LONG post, you might wanna ignore this.

If you know me, you will know that I love Japan, I love to listen to Japanese music
If you know me, you will know that I spend on music collections rather than anything else
If you know me, you will know that I love to see live performances especially live (even though I didn't go frequently..)
If you know me, you will know that I've always wanted to see my idols' live concerts
If you know me, you will know that I would definitely want go to their concerts if they are around
(if I can afford, that is)

If you are close to me/did follow my blog/Twitter
You will know that I was going to see ONE OK ROCK in Singapore
But unfortunately my grandma passed away, on the same date of the concert
So, bye to my money for ticket and passport, and my parents' money for bus tickets x3 x 2days

I won't blame anything or so, it's just very memorable things that happened after my 21st birthday
Last photo with grandma, last angpau by her, passed away on the concert day/my lunar birthday
Won't forget what happened indeed

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After few days or a week or two later (the beginning of this month, July)
my sis told me a shocking, SHOCKING NEWS - MIYAVI IS COMING TO MALAYSIA
............what...the...f.....freakin WHAAAAT??? SERIOUSLY?!! This is HUGE MAJOR NEWS!!! MIYAVI?? HERE?? MALAYSIA?? OUR COUNTRY???!! And it's on 25th July!! Few weeks later!! Not months, WEEKS!
I don't care, I just say I want to go without hesitating, and of course so does my sis
Checked the price, RM130 for Rock Zone, VIP tickets? just ignore them. 
Got discount from Jrock Tamashii, OK BUY!!

Told Ting immediately 'cause I know she likes him too, and AhHui my ex-colleague at CLASSIC
.........................................

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So... who is MIYAVI?

He's a Japanese rock musician, which I started to know him when his major album released
Which during those days there is "AIUEO" on TVBS Asia, and I get to know lots of Japanese artistes
Which is during my early days of my secondary school

His major album - Miyavism 雅主義 released in 2005
How does he looked like during that time?

Awesome colourful hair, pierces on his face, tattoos on his body
This is the MIYAVI that I first know
He was so young.... (compared to how he look now) *o* 
Well basically he already started his music career before 2000 but still in the indies 
Came out as a guitarist of a Visual Kei band Due le Quartz, but after disband he went solo
But this is the first song I know him


This is the show where I used to watch and followed
This episode is not the one I remember I watched
But you can see a bit of his guitar skills tho

Anyway, his guitar skill is awesome, he looks freakin' cool and somehow acts cool
But he also acts stupidly weird too lololol
Well, this is his image
Piercings, tattoos, nice hair, good looking, awesome guitar skill and showmanship
Girlish (or gayish for you) yet manly, act like a kid and act stupid, and weird lol
Which is why his fans love him :)

Here are some of his transformation

Lol maybe it's too over for you, but i sudah biasa these looks
There are more artistes' style are exaggerate that his ok, VISUAL KEI
But now he tone down a lot, later you see la

I remember I loved to watch his Pop is Dead PV
I mean.. he is weird and you will think "wtf is he doing?" and stuffs
And Jibun Kakumei too, Itoshii Hito, and Kekkonshiki no Uta PV, I LOOOVE this one :)

Lots of old songs, these 3 songs, Jibun Kakumei, Selfish Love, Itoshii Hito etc
His songs from Miyavizm, MYV Pops, Miyaviuta Dokusou, This Iz the Japanese Kabuki Rock
Not that familiar with This Iz Japanese Kabuki Rock, but know few of their songs
There's two more old albums before Miyavizm but I'm not familiar with those :(
Even though I'm not a HUUUGE fan, I'm still a big fan
Even though I didn't listen to his songs like everyday, I still put his songs in my playlist
I love his songs compare to most of the other current visual rock artiste in Japanese
He's my favourite guitarist (as in skills) and he IS one of the artiste that I want to see their live performance
(other than GLAY and chatmonchy and ayaka and X JAPAN etc etc...)

But I had never ever wish that they (except for GLAY :x) to come here
I was planning to go to Japan to see them, not here, not at all
Especially Miyavi who has tattoos all over his body


I even wanted to buy his Neo Tokyo Samurai but I didn't buy it 'cause I don't have that much money
Now... look at the price now....T_____T
And "This Iz The Original Samurai Style" DVD, there is this DVD at the place where I worked last time
But it is "Malaysia edition"... you know what the quotation marks mean...
It is cheap, very VERY cheap, but I don't wanna... you know.....
(but maybe I'll buy it someday? 'cause it's better than downloading...? x_x?
maybe not....still against it.... Uggghhhhh money....!!! x___x)


He (quite) recent look, toned down A LOT
Maybe it's because he got older now plus he's a daddy with two daughters :)

I did followed his Twitter and subscribed his Youtube so basically I did listen to his recent latest tracks
And his recent projects are really REALLY FOCUS on his guitar skills, which is really awesome
I mean before this, one of the things people remembers him because of his outlook plus guitar skill
But right now he doesn't have to do that anymore, it's really, really awesome
And what awesome is, he collaborate stuffs, like how he plays his guitar is added some bass and shamisen
And his This Iz the Japanese Kabuki Rock is a mixture of Japanese traditional and pop culture
..........


OK END OF "INTRO"!! (intro only......?!!!)

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Ok... 7/25 concert, 7/23 opening ceremony for Tokyo Street anniversary, 7/24 fan meet and greet...!!!
When I know the news, I watch his videos and songs again and again, everyday
Kept spamming facebook with his videos, kept thinking whether this is real or not...
The song and video that I'm addicted during the await before the days come

Awesomeness... not just because he can perform a one-man-show
It's also because he changed how the song original sound like ♥
Watch and listen to it everyday, listen to his songs everyday
Especially his latest album "What's My Name?"

.........
Ok I think I just skip and just jump to the awesome 3 days, THREE, days
Here it goes!!

The days before DAY 1, watched his Youtube live stream in Tokyo, awesome...
The day before DAY 1 ,waited for him to tweet about on the way coming here
Tweeted, got nervous and can barely sleep
And keep hoping I can go to the airport to... stalk... him...
Lol jk..... :(

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DAY 1 - 23 July 2012 - Opening ceremony

Woke up, checked twitter, he's here, in Malaysia already, MALAYSIA
......felt pretty bad actually 'cause I was in the middle of rushing a few assignments
Will blog about it next time

Ok!! Around 5pm meet my sis at her office, and off we go, to PAVILION!
Had dinner, expensive spaghetti at FishMarket... after that terus head to the centre court
Waiting, waiting, and waiting... start waiting before 7pm...
It's really crazy and unbelievable that we're going to see him in person
Not through a freakin machine, a real.life.person
Sooner or later Ting arrived, later my sis' friend Reiko's here too
Waiting, kept looking around to spot him, still waiting...
Ok, VIPs appeared, VIP speeches........Where's Miyavi....??
Later Reiko suddenly called us and what a great news, we can go in to the sealed space!!
(btw the centre court was blocked, VIPs and media etc only, so we stood outside the area)
We were like O__O?!! And rushed in to the area with stupid bright smile lol
And looking around again.... where is he...?!
Suddenly fans started to scream, we were like where?? Kept looking around... WHERE?!!
Suddenly.... ....................O_____________O


......he...is...just... near..... INFRONT OF US!!!? SO TALL and fair and slim!!
Me, my sis, Ting and Reiko started to squeak, I mean not very loud, but I think he can hear us...
I only know that I kept holding my camera and kept combo snapping his back....
And suddenly....

SUDDENLY.........!!!

哎呀衰jor zzz the girl blocked the EPIC THING that just happened!!!!
This photo... this photo.....!! Do you know what happened???
While I'm taking his photos and my sis them squeak (plus fans screaming)
He suddenly turned around, saw us, and SMILED!!!!
We were like O________O OMG!!!!!!!!! 被电死啊!!!!!
It's so.so.so.freaking.SHOCKED!!!!!
Felt pretty bad at the same time 'cause my camera was shooting right at his face!!!
Anyway, we kena sot kept gila I don't even know how to express the feeling
But we're still under control... jangau risau....

After that it's time for him to go on stage!
It's so hard to get a perfect space to stand plus I wanna record his performance!!
But we still got a nice place... hehehehe... :B
He speaks... speaks in fluent English, like very fluent
Even tho some pronunciation is not really correct but still!! More fluent than me!! OTL
And perform....

1:45 lol cute :x **videos are not from me


Holy.... holy....... I really can't say anything...
I can't believe that I'm watching him right at that moment
He's just right infront of me, performing...his voice and guitar... his hand and fingers....!!!
It's real... it's Miyavi, standing infront of us....!!
So fair and pretty.. and tall.. and slim.. awesome guitar skill... he is..... PERFECT!!!! 三D%

He performed two songs, "What's My Name?" and "Strong"
I only recorded the first only 'cause I wanna enjoy the show!!

After he finished performing, a little bit of speech and talk about the following events
And take photos with VIPs...

Ohhhhhh I manage to snap this! Without his sunglasses *O*
It's so funny 'cause when he took off his sunglasses (which only last for a second)
Everyone just starts to scream 'cause he didnt take the sunglasses off!


taken from Pavilion's Facebook *LIKE*

And so after taking photos, he left :(
And I've recorded when he left.. :(.... :) :(

“满载而归”~~ lol

And back home, rush assignment until I think around 4am and woke up at 7am for class....OTL



DAY 2 - 24 July 2012 - Fan Meet and Greet

After class again... rush to meet my sis again, reached there and blah...
Waiting the time to pass... looking around...
Suddenly... wait... a group of men in black at the opposite side...!!! MIYAVI IS IN THERE!!
Then suddenly the fangirls started to scream and I quickly take out my camera to record
Then he went away... :( Wait again....
Another time he passed by again, heading for dinner I think?

ANYWAY LET'S JUST SKIP.. LOL


He's here... *snaps snaps snaps eventho i zoom to the max still very small.. this is cropped btw*
later I'm going to let him sign the album and shake his hand... WHAAAT????

When it's my turn, super nervous la.....
Just told him I'm very happy and glad that he came to Malaysia and thanked him
Then while he was signing *stun*...(LOL)
Then I said I started following him since his debut (FAILED WRONG!!)
He asked which one? I said Miyavizm (FAILED!! That's not his debut!!!)
So fail la... later he think "wtf this person simply say my debut was Miyavizm..."
Oh no... 昨天相机对着他已经不好了啦,这次还讲错东西
不好的影像了!!! Nooooo!!!

After the autograph and hand shake (WHICH I've forgotten how it was 'cause I was too nervous!!!)
We just stayed there... watching....

Someone brought their guitars to let him sign....
.....I should have bring mine tooo..... T____________T


Wooots without sunglasses again!! Screenshots from my recorded video! >.<





Hello... lololol random pic of mine with the album :x

After that when he leave, everyone rushed and chased him!!
I was like what?? What should I do now??!!
I've never been to this kind of event before, what should I do?!!!
I heard my sis called me, but where the f is she?!?!
Aiya chase saja la! But I don't dare to chase till very close >.<
After that he left, and I saw my sis
We we're like, should we rush downstairs....? ........追就追啦!!! LOL!!
It's so gan jiong and I bet we look freakin stupid rushing down the escalators!!
Went outside the main entrance, ok... so where's everyone? They left already? Ok...
Just when we were about to leave, suddenly....!!!
OMG They just reached the main entrance!!! He's there!!!!
There's only me and my sis at the moment... what should we do...?!!
Again I took out my cam to record... x__X
He saw us, and we said hi and wave awkwardly... LOL And he waved back!
Then my sis shouted thank you Miyavi, and I shouted thanks!
And then he left..... AHHHHH!!!!!
No more....:( :))))))

又再满载而归 :)

Back home... bath go to friend's house do assignment until around 2am... back home... sleep....


DAY 3 - 25 July 2012 - THE DAY....!!!

Left my friends to do the assignments and I go to the concert...
Can't feel the excitement before the concert 'cause no energy to think, lack of sleep..


The queue.... @THE STAGE


Forgotten to bring more money to buy merchandise...
Bought a t shirt and a towel... It is of course expensive, but we never bought REAL merchandise before...!!
if I bring more money than we can buy the white t shirt as well...
Bodoh... but good la... control my money....

8pm+++ I think around or after 8:30pm?
Walked into the venue, starting to feel the vibe and excitement...
It's here.... we're going to see him just in a few minutes....!!
I'll just skip the opening acts (sorry :x)

The fangirls kept screaming even though it's not Miyavi that came out from backstage (lights are off)
blahblablah....


And HE'S HERE!!! We were like OMG NO SUNGLASSES!! (LOL)
WATCH the opening performance video!!!!

I tell you, he kept 电 and seducing the audience!! From the beginning till the end!!
Even my friend who is a guy(straight) kept saying “哇被电死了啊!!”
Especially 4:03~4:08!! Our spot is just over theeeere!!! X____X
He looks so pretty and looks so good and his guitar skill and his eyes....!!! His expression so "艳"(?)!!
And how he moves, his plays, his poses.... it's Miyavi for reaaaallll!!!!


STRONG x GRAVITY
感情丰富到... 投入到不懂怎样讲....


A-HA!! ♥


SHELTER♥


Drummer - Motokatsu from THE MAD CAPSULE MARKETS / Rally / ACE OF SPADES
(Which is connected to HISASHI and GLAY >.<)


He even performed some old tracks!! Like Selfish Love and We Love You ♥
What a Wonderful World (video starts at 1:36, this is encore btw) !
SO SHOCKED X3



The final song.... awesome shit...
3:31 he took off his clothes!! Lololol but his body is like a piece of art 'cause it's covered with tattoos
Not those dragon or what tattoos (=.=), it's all calligraphy!
6:50 epic, those ppl really pk, he told them not to film and start headbang but they continue to film zzz
9:27~9:40 also! Kena air!! lololol
.....10:06 "I promise I'll be back soon, ok? Let's rock out and be strong together, ok?"
.........够力...
And no more....


.........came out from the venue, and freakin tired
Lack of sleep and jump + wave hand until felt like cramping and I had to stop 'cause no more energy..


Back home, bath, put on my new MYV t shirt to motivate myself
And head to my friend's house continue to battle, until i think 7am++...

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It's been a week for now, and I still can't believe I met him in person
Still can't believe I talked to him, shook hands with him, and watched him perform...
His vocals are so good, better than I thought, so freakin powerful LIVE!! Different from younger days!!
Well eventho his doesn't have the perfect best vocal, the way he present his songs are full of emotions
And not to forget, his charisma and showmanship, and guitar play...
Even if you don't know him, you won't regret it if you go to his concert and watch him play...

And on Sunday his pre-recorded interview on FlyFM was aired... *___*

And local newspaper.... Sinchew.... *_*


Looking all his old videos in youtube, felt so so so weird
1. I.actually.met.him.in.person!!!
2. He...looks so different, looks so mature now!
I tell you, if he still have those piercings and hairstyles, when he do those expressions, it's nothing
The whole look is just a bad boy jumping around and doing his thing, still seducing but it's "acting", naturally
But now his hairstyle...!! He looks so mature and everything he do is like REALLY seducing the audience!!
I mean, the face is still the same, i tried covering his hair when I watch his videos, it's the saaame
Conclusion: HAIRSTYLES really matters! (lol tulis report ke? -_-)

Anyway, it's still so weird.... it's really a dream i tell you....
I remember how happy me and sis were when Pavilion just launch Tokyo Street and we get to hear Japanese songs at the main entrance...
I've never expected huge Japanese artistes would come to Malaysia
(well you know.. now it's all about Korean stuffs...)
Well I know there are some bands came like LOUDNESS(pretty famous but not mainstream), MONO and Lite (both post-rock bands, not mainstream, small gigs again)
Never, ever, expect to see mainstream Japanese artistes... NEVER
Even if I did hope that GLAY or X JAPAN would come, it's just HOPING
I'm planning to go see them all in Japan...
And suddenly this news came, Miyavi came... which is like....

I love music, but even if I said this, I'm very VERY BIAS
I choose music with "music instruments" first (guitar, bass, drums, piano/keyboard)
I choose rock and ballads first compared to dance electro or rap
I choose music before the millennium compared to music nowadays (mainstream english/chinese pop)
Where every genre is still at it's own genre and sounded good
Now they all mixed up, some are still good, but most of them sounded the same and pretty weird
(IN MY OPINION, just my opinion)

I was born listening to both English and Chinese music
But more into English music, later when I know GLAY, I barely listen to any other language music
I love Japanese music, whenever I heard chinese or korean music, i'll just go "blah.."
(right now I'm trying my best to accept some of them to improve myself btw...)
Eventho I said I love Japanese music, I only follow those few bands or artistes
Like those visual kei band, I'll go "man.. they sounded the same"
But I still prefer to listen to their music compared to other language music
Bias? I think I am.

I don't know... i just love their language (lol research for arts and design..?!! =__=)
But seriously, their language is very beautiful, their lyrics
I mean, it is simple yet complicated and beautiful and meaningful all at the same time
And their music and lyrics motivates me a lot, A LOT
That is why I love GLAY, that is why I love MATCHBOX20 (wait.. they're american, not japanese lol)
That s why I love ONE OK ROCK, that is why I love X JAPAN etc etc etc
And that is why I love Miyavi
All their lyrics are encouraging people to keep on living, be yourself, don't give up etc
With simple yet beautiful meaningful lyrics *_*

道に迷ったって誰かに聞けばいい
夢見失ったってまた目を閉じればいい
そしていつかまた咲いてやるのさ 
大きく手を広げて陽の光の差す方へ
"If you lost your way, just ask somebody
If you lost your dream, just close your eyes again
And some day you will blossom again, with your hands wide spread to the sun..."
Lyric from Sakihokoru Hanano Yoni -Neo Visualizm-


.....eventho I'm not exactly on the music side (which I really hope to be there...) and still lack of knowledge on it, in terms of genres, artistes, music skills etc etc
Eventho I'm a fangirl (hey, I'm a very VERY normal fangirl, I didn't screamed like crazy and 失仪态 lo lol)
I follow artistes and bands I love, I collect their music records
It IS the things that keeps me continue to live, like seriously... if it wasn't them, why am I still here....? I have no idea...
All I'm doing right now is to find a good stable job in the future, and when I've got the money, I'll just go to Japan straight away to see their concerts and buy their related goods and collectibles...
If, IF i have a band, I'll go to Japan with my band.... and maybe we'll get to know my idols etc
Other than these.... I really don't know what to do
Well taking care of my parents is a must of course, and.... marriage....?
No... even if I did think of marriage, it is not a MUST for me... (自私.... =_=)
Other than these.... well recently I've been thinking of creating my own label...
Ughh I don't know.....!! I just want to see live performances all day everyday!!

Really enjoyed watching live performances, enjoyed watching the performers doing the thing they love
Entertaining and motivating the audience, making them happy, isn't that good?

While watching Miyavi, it felt really good...
Not just because of I saw him in person, you can see how fun he had when he's performing
Enjoying what he loves to do, performing and creating music, encouraging people...
How he delivers the message, his expression.... it's freakin awesome....

Start watching him for years.. around 7 years... can't believe he came here...!!
.....can't wait for him to come back to Malaysia!

.............
And guess what? GLAY just released a news, I mean 7 news
They're going to release two new singles, two new albums.... BO LUI LAAA
And... and..... WORLD TOUR NEXT YEAR...........
Am.not.very.happy...... you know why?
Because I'm scared that when I'm going to go to Liverpool next year, they come here.... -_______-
Really fuuu if like that...
Am hoping that they will come here before I go to Liverpool OR after I came back
OR go to somewhere near Liverpool when I'm there... lol

...........


Ok I think I'm done syok sendiri here
Been spamming my Twitter with tweets and spamming my Facebook with Miyavi's videos
'cause I can't express and share this feeling outside with my friends 'cause you guys don't know him and don't know how big it is
Plus if I keep talking about it I will kena belasah 'cause everyone is rushing assignments....||||

Ok I think I'm really done now
Used few days to complete this entry -_-

Thank you very much if you saw THIS sentence
It means you actually read this whole entry from the top to the end
OR you just skipped everything terus see the ending. lol
But it's ok if no one reads this, it's just a record so that next time I can read and syok sendiri again :x

.......

Next post..... will talk about college life....... fu.
Or mayb Miyavi's songs.... lol.



MIYAVIさんはに最高だ、すごっく楽しかった。

p/s: HAPPY GLAY DAY ♥

Friday, July 27, 2012

cdafasfd

Wanted to update this place, seems like there's so much to share (i think..?)
but all thanks to all these freakin' assignments, i can only write this
am half dead, or 1/5 dead right now, no soul
weight loss, not in a good way
but achieve one of my dream, an awesome surreal dream
will talk more about it next time after all these shit
maybe few different blog entries.




I hate reality.

Friday, July 20, 2012

All This And Heaven Too by Florence And The Machine


(too bad the pitch has been tuned higher =\)


And the heart is hard to translate
It has a language of its own
It talks in tongues and quiet sighs,
And prayers and proclamations
In the grand days of great men and the smallest of gestures
And short shallow gasps

But with all my education I can’t seem to command it
And the words are all escaping, and coming back all damaged
And I would put them back in poetry if I only knew how
I can’t seem to understand it

And I would give all this and heaven too
I would give it all if only for a moment
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see
‘Cause I’ve been scrawling it forever but it never makes sense to me at all

And it talks to me in tiptoes
And it sings to me inside
It cries out in the darkest night and breaks in the morning light

But with all my education I can’t seem to command it
And the words are all escaping, and coming back all damaged
And I would put them back in poetry if I only knew how
I can’t seem to understand it

And I would give all this and heaven too
I would give it all if only for a moment
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see
‘Cause I’ve been scrawling it forever but it never makes sense to me at all

And I would give all this and heaven too
I would give it all if only for a moment
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see
‘Cause I’ve been scrawling it forever but it never makes sense to me at all

No, words are a language
It doesn’t deserve such treatment
And all of my stumbling phrases never amounted to anything worth this feeling

All this heaven never could describe such a feeling as I'm hearing

Words were never so useful
So I was screaming out a language that I never knew existed before

Sunday, July 15, 2012

War


前晚做那个死report做到一点多睡,第二天早起,去.... 打仗!!!

第一次玩paintball,又兴奋又gan jiong(我不否认我是怕死的..ohoh.. -_-")
不过要毕业了,毕业前来死一次
而且印象中以前除了玩过几次arcade shooting game都好像没有怎样玩射枪的game
(小时后是“女的”只玩barbie and masak-masak...lego..:D)
只是上次shooting照顾小孩子时玩过真的会射东西出来的玩具枪
(好先进啊好像有机关酱...*__* sry la aku noob...)

幸好先玩小场的,因为刚开始玩都是怕死 zzz
第二场在森林里比较爽,射人又容易射中因为躲着的范围小
不像小场的整块挡着难射到死,好躲不好射
aim人射到很爽combo到用完子弹wtf,不过射到人家受伤.. 真是paiseh...


看其他组玩的时候真的是刺激到死,看戏酱
本来还有最后一场,不过不懂做么又没有了 :(
下次在去玩过再来杀人~ 嘿嘿~ ........o___O?!

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

4 months



明明住很靠近罢了,但几个月不见,各忙各的,好难约 ~_~

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