Saturday, July 31, 2010

GLAY♥ II




最高!




Hisa♥♥♥


Jiro♥


I WANT THESE!!! *cries*

Credits to GLAY LiB CAFE 2010 Special Site



Happy GLAY Day :D

GLAY♥

**Hehe.. another fangirl posts.. beh tahan.. YOUTUBE ADDICTION IS BACKKK!!!!
______

Hehehehehe I ♥ GLAY.. Hisashi is ♥!! HehehehehehhEHHEHE!!

GLAY Ballads♥







GLAY Pop rocks♥







Although their latest songs are nice too
but I still think their older songs are better!
OH WAITT!! I HAVEN'T BUY THEIR The Great Vacation Vol.1 AND Vol.2!!!!
AND THEY'RE STILL IN STOCK IN YESASIA.COM!!!! (oh shit, browsing YeaAsia.com again..)
Vol.1 are all those newer songs.. ignore normal edition, limited ed got two version
A with 30 MVs.. B with their [pure soul "Movie"] during their 1998 pure soul Tour..
Which should I buy.... Ughghhhhhghghghh *drools*
Vol.2 are olders songs.. but got Jacket A and Jacket B and Jacket C!
But Jacket C is normal edition so I'll just ignore it..
Jacket A is with 23 music videos, Jacket B is with their best live performances in these 15 years..
I prefer live performance so Jacket B is fine...
But Jacket A.. music videos.. those old songs...
Err... ergh... erghhghhhghhh....
Vol.1 A VS Vol.1 B, Vol.2 JacketA VS Vol.2 JacketB....
Which one which one.... I WANT THEM ALLLL... ALL LIMITED EDITIONNNN!!!
UGHHGHHGHHHHH!!!! *DROOLS*


But not enough money plus I still haven't buy any guitar effect stuffs..
And PRS Orianthi SE..






.............dilemma...





I should be doing my assignments now, but I dunno where to start zzz

Friday, July 30, 2010

Goose bumps

***Hehe damn long time didn't fangirl already...
So please ignore this blog entry.. heheheh....

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X JAPAN WORLD TOUR Live in YOKOHAMA!!! On 14 and 15 August!! (swt)
I know it's impossible for us to go there etc etc, but WOWOW has live streammmm!!
We can't watch it at WOWOW 'cause it's only for Japan.. BUT!!
Maybe those other X Freaks can share it for us to watch or maybe just audio streaming
Just like last time... *thinks back*
Or maybe just look at those ppl in 2ch chatting about the live..?
Wghghhhhh.... *drools*
Oh ya and Taiji might be there performing too!!!
That's so awesome! Reunion!! With two bassists!!
Wgggghhghghghghghhhhhhh!!! *DROOOLLLSSSSS + GOOSEBUMPSSS*

*added* YAY ROSE OF PAAAIIINNN!!! ♥


I wanna watch these two movies, Japanese movie that is.


Hanamizuki
Starring Aragaki Yui(from Koizora) and IKUTA TOMA (and MUKAI OSAMU) ♥
(heheheh...)


BECK (i've mentioned this before but whatever)
Starring *fast forward* MUKAI OSAMU again!! ♥
(Rihito-sama vs SHINOBU!!!)
(Heheheheh..)


And I wanna watch HanaKimi again (NAKATSUUUU!!!!♥)
So is Akihabara@DEEP, Honey and Clover, Nodame Cantabile..
And all other dramas(and maybe movies :D) that includes Ikuta Toma and Mukai Osamu!! ♥♥♥

Hehe.. hehehhehe... HEHEHIKEMENHEHEHEHEHEH.....
HAHA GILA SIAO!!


Oh ya and one more thing...


Gonna skip next week's English class for Orianthi *WINKS* LOL
(Love my dad♥)

Monday, July 26, 2010

Free

Yaaaayyy Free from Hello Panda!!!
Had some problems before and during presentation, but oh well~

Being blur just now in the morning until I nearly lost my wallet! (I left it on the rack outside the lab..)
Thanks to Caro help take it back, I langsung forgot about it
Or else I won't even notice until I reach home... swt
(when she showed me, I tot she buat apa, I didn't notice my wallet is on her hand 'cause she's holding other colourful wallets
until she told me i only saw my wallet.. mine is black/brown so i tak nampak, only nampak colourful ones.. swt)



The cm/tvc for our Hello Panda~ heh!
But our Hello Panda flash site, the design and layout each and every page is not consistent
Oh well, already passed up, and we don't want to face panda already!
Oh ya and thanks to my sis for having those Jdrama ost(s) for the tvc♥
Bgm:
Yumemiru Otome - Nodame Cantabile drama ost
HA・NA・ZA Carnival - Hanazakari no Kimitachi ost

*adds*And thanks to her to tell me which part moves not natural so I can change it ♥

After present and pass up our stuffs, the only thing in my mind is SLEEP!
But when I reached home only remember I still got something else to rush..
Gonna rush it now so that I get to sleep early tonight until tomorrow afternoon!
Yaayy no more classes on Monday and Tuesday!
But still got assignment to do so not much difference
The only difference is Monday no need to wake up so early. lol.



Sem break ah...

Before 3am

要两点了~ 等下六点多得起来,八点presentation~
还不想睡所以又来写些废话~

辛苦了整个星期,刚才终于赶完了!
弄flash的弄到眼花,因为太多layer
弄action script的也是,因为太多字!

每个semester都会有一两天崩溃,这个sem应该就是前天,等于拜六啦~
拜六有日文小考,根本没什么读到,也读不进脑,一直怕赶不完这个flash!
又想考试,又想有flash要做,又想有照片得edit,好像赶不完这样的!
因为很烦没有心情,一直摆脸色脸很臭,妈妈看到很不爽就骂我,也不懂我是做么这个样
我也不想这样的,因为脑要爆了!所以去考试前在房间崩溃一下才出来
过后就一直憋着.. 对身体很不好咯... 哈哈
不过考试考到还好~ 幸好有点基础,要不然就惨咯...

没有想到最后一part的flash竟然是弄到最pekcek的
花了一整半天才弄好一只丑熊猫!
幸好昨晚熬夜,要不然真的赶不完了!
不过一弄好的时候,看到成果的时候真的是开心到死!
弄到很可爱!哈哈欠打称赞自己的作品!
因为以前也没弄过这个东西嘛,自己syok下也无所谓啦~
挑战自己,对自己要求高些,尽量做好自己本分,尽力做到最好!

这个assignment真的很够力咯.. 真的是一整天坐在这里不动
时间用得还蛮充足的~ 不过最后一天又是赶到酱迟!
Burn一个cd都搞到几个钟!有问题出现,唉~
不过总算搞定了~ 松了一点~
明天presentation不懂会不会顺利,应该又是会却场吧?哈哈随便~

今天一整天没有开歌来听,因为要专心弄好,很不舒服啊!
差不多要弄好了就开,唉~


有时真的会在想,我在这里写的东西
有时是在mention一些人,或直接写给那些人看
有时写“他们”不代表全部人,也可能是全部人
又也可能是包括另外一个/一班人,因为相似
也没说明清楚到底在讲谁
有些是明显啦,不过有些是很模糊的
我在想,会不会有人在我不是在讲他时,他就误会我在写他自己?
应该是会有的?也可能没有的 随便啦
我只是想写当时自己的心情,自己脑里想的东西,
喜怒哀乐,生活中重要的东西
在我生活中不重要的话,我写来做么?
除非是一些random的废话啦.. 要不然才懒得写呢~



哈哈要三点了,睡觉。
最好不要给我梦到熊猫....

Friday, July 23, 2010

100723

"Why do I feel like a slave instead of one of them?"
This is what I thought.. Not just once, more than twice.
Asked for my help, but didn't help themselves by helping me
Sat there and waited for me to do those set up instead
And wasted some time by just waiting me to do those stuffs

"I'm the one who was asked by them to help them to do stuffs
But why am I setting up those stuffs myself, which they needed ?
None of them even bother to ask whether I need help to help them to do these?
I'm not the one who asked for help, I'm here just to take some photos which they asked
THEIR PHOTOS (well mine too, but it's their command tho)"


Is it because I'm too quiet? Is it because I don't usually blend with them?
Or is it because of my NATURAL-BORN-MOODY-FACE?
So they barely step closer to me?

People need help, ok, I'm a nice person, I help
Need more help again? Ok... I help again..
Again?? Ok.. help.. helping people is a good deed, no harm..
......but what's with sitting aside doing nothing and just waiting..?
Other photographers has an assistant to help them, I don't
And none of them didn't even bother to ask if I need some help? What?
(Well there's one who noticed, she did helped me and know that I'm a bit pissed)

I just agreed to help, as a designer and the ticket stuffs
Photographer? That's extra stuff.

.....what if I said "NO" for helping them to take photos?
Wait, did they ask whether I'm willing to help them take photos?
Just asking whether I'm free or not during those period of time
And.. that's it?
Before I get to consult my assignment, and I had to rush to the spot?
And then I asked them to set up everything but they waited for me to set up instead?
What's that? I thought they want things to be done asap?
If the set up is done before I reach, I can just start the photoshoot
And not wasting time by waiting ME setting up those stuff?

I can't even do my consultation with my groupmates
I can't even continue my assignments
I can't even see how the lecturer show those flash script coding
I lose to learn something I'm interested in
I didn't get to see those photography examples for our final photography assignment
If not because of this, I get to rush back home continue doing my flash
Since there's like.. 4 hours break what the hell?

I lose so many thingS(with a "S"), instead I'm doing other thing(without a "S")?
THOSE things are for my future, THIS is for...? Good deed?
I thought doing good deeds are suppose to be happy?

I'm doing this without and "reward", as in cash, not experience
If what I'm doing right now is a freelance job, I can actually earn more than RM1000
Or maybe more since it's been already like..around 5 months
Money minded? Yes and no, even my dad talks about this. (Well this is the "real" world)

If they helped, I won't be even mad
But the problem is, well.. what I said.

I feel so stupid by keep agreeing on helping
Yes, helping, good thing to do,
Or maybe they treat me as one of them so they act like this.... ORLY?
It's driving me CRAZY and TIRED
Seriously, I can't wait to end all of this
I've spend my time and mind and energy on this
I can barely focus my studies
I can barely spend time on assignments

I know, I used to love that place, I still love it in some other way
The things I don't like about? Personalities and attitude and mind-thinking?
Yup. But thanks to those bad and negative ones, I get to improve myself
Thank you.very much.

The most valuable thing I can get from this?
Got some experience and improved my skills in Illustrator.

If you didn't think your time is precious
That doesn't mean mine is like yours
My time is precious, stop wasting my time
Stop wasting other people's time.


Now we're rushing our Multimedia Authoring assignment
A big one, using Adobe Flash
I'm doing a flash vid, just a few second short vid
Already doing starting this week, this Monday
It's just a few second clip, and I've only done half of it
Today it's Friday, and we're gonna pass it up and present on Monday
Less than two days left..

Monday.. Everyone it's going to be like zombies during presentation. Lol.

Week 13, I'm sooo LOOKING FORWARD to it (rightttt)
LOOKING FORWARD = both good and bad
AM looking forward, 'cause sem break is coming soon!
I have to go for trips! I never did go anywhere during the holidays
Except staying at home.. since.. primary or secondary school..
AM NOT looking forward, 'cause it's a fucking BUSY WEEK!!
3 assignments to present and pass up, two days performance to do..
What.the.*duuuuuuuuuuuut*.

Can't wait for everything to be done
So that I get to SLEEP!!
All of us didn't get much sleep for two months already wtf!
Year 2, Year 2....


What the hell am I doing wasting my time typing some many rubbish?
'cause I'm mad, I'm pissed, I'm tired!
I want to sleep but I'll drag for more than an hour to sleep thinking assignments
Thinking assignments while doing other things, thinking what to do next
Why... when will this end...?
Sem break? NO! After graduate!! (or maybe... it will never end...)



My eyes... Your eyes... Our eyes...
All bengkak....

Tomorrow jap language test.. can't study and revision pun...zzz


PEK CEK!!

I want to see Orianthi Live in KL Live..
I want to see live band performance...
I want to...

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

废话

我很不会控制自己不爽的脸部表情吧....?
虽然我(们-戏子)是戏剧组的,也不代表很会控制自己的心情表情..


当我没有idea或不懂要怎样做时,我就跟着罢了,因为也不懂要做什么
不过如果有点看不顺也要出声,因为看不顺
当我有idea时,我就会尽全力做到最好,因为自己懂自己要什么
要适合主体,全部东西都要是一体的
要好的成果好的成绩的话,都掌握在自己的手中
不好就重做,做到好为止
才对得起自己,弄得自己看到自己的作品而开心
对自己的自我要求要高
最后得到的是自己,不是别人。


我很欠打,不懂要什么的就好像不理不睬,懂要什么的就要求高
自己能做到的就一定要做到完美为止才甘愿
不能做到的也尽量自己看得顺眼就好




对不起。

Thursday, July 15, 2010

100715

最近好像一直打blog,而且还是华语... 随便啦我爽..
不是我太得空,是一直很想写东西写废话
基本上现在已经凌晨差不多两点半了的
刚刚画完walk cycle罢了...

明明是有很多东西做,不过又不懂做么好像很轻松那样
最近都没什么着急还是怕赶不及做完
习惯了?麻木了?现在还在电脑前做么?
不过应该是那几个assignment的deadline还没到的关系
到时候就应该会慌到傻吧..?
Year 2锻炼出来的东西... 熬夜熬惯了
不过也是一样累..(废话)

College的朋友们那里发生了一些事情
事情怎么会变成这样呢?不懂
跟我没什么关系的.. 不过还是很... 唉
没得罪到我啊,也不想插手
所以就... 没什么理这样咯
当听众观众,给一点反应就算了... 嗯...

5+1, 6-2, 4-1,3+2
Group人数的变化(我们这gang)..? ==
发现到大家都很积极了...
等下,本来就是那么积极的吧?
只是分组了,很久没有整组一起讨论东西
现在又一起了,讨论时的声音不会停的..
她们一直讲讲讲,我就在那边脑空白的 够力
我的脑转不够快,想不到idea来讲 zzz
不过今天还蛮爽的~ 全部来我家做assignment拍照
过后又聊天又讨论assignment...
上次sem2完了后就没有这样了
因为分组了,人少了,笑话也少了 D:

虽然是说有一点衰.. 不过... 唉
希望她们会变积极一点...

对了,刚才爸爸临睡前泡了一杯milo和煮了maggi给我吃
其中一个熬夜喜欢的东西! HAHA ^^*


Currently addicted to these songs
The Ting Tings - Great DJ
WEAVER - Hard to say I love you ~言い出せなくて~
Michelle Branch - All You Wanted
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps
ke$ha - Your Love Is My Drug

Orianthi is coming to Malaysia next month.. at KL Live....
......ughghhghhgh!!!!



It's going to be 3am.. Time to sleep.

Oh ya, and it's my dad's birthday today
Happy Birthday to my dad ♥

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Lepidopterophobia

前晚在家电脑面前弄东西时
突然左边出现一只白色蝴蝶/飞蛾
崩溃

今天在丽娟房间那里玩那些她们拿来拍照的华乐器
突然出现一只黑色飞蛾 差一点被它碰到
恐怖

看过我因这些东西而崩溃的
只有我家人和college那几个朋友
连yvonne和婷都好像没看过吧 ==

对旁观者来说,可以说是笑话
明明是那么可爱漂亮的东西 又小只
有什么好怕的?
拜托... 对我来说,噩梦!
恶心,恐怖,一点都不美
由虫变成的东西... 一点都不美!
恶心的样子... 恶心的翅膀....!
那么大片的翅膀 要断不断的在那边flip
恐怖.....!


怕它 并不是我想要的
要怪就怪其中一个童年

Acridophobia, pulpuslaceratapohobia...

One simple thing will cause a person having a phobia
But it doesn't mean you'll get just one
It might be linking a few other phobia, similiar ones

You can't blame a person who was afraid of some thing as if they're gonna die
It's not a crime for having phobia.

Monday, July 12, 2010

真假

这个世界真真假假,很多很多谎言
搞得该相信的也不信,不该信的又信
要不然就一半信一半不信

好的谎言 坏的谎言
如果是好的话还好
如果是不好的呢?自己会好过吗?
一直撒谎 变得很自然地撒谎 习惯了
自己真的不觉得怎样吗?
总有一天也会害到自己吧

自己导的一篇谎言 有的把自己的角色弄得简直是好人
明明知道好人怎么当 那为什么不干脆把自己真的变成好人
却继续暗中当坏人?

谎言有疑点都好 即使可能性大 也不一定是所想象的那样
这种东西有很多路很多选择 很难100%确定是真是假
若判断错了 对方无辜 面对时也尴尬
若判断对了 也很难面对
事实只有那个人自己知道
如果真的是不好的 自己自然将会得到报应

旁观者最好的就是不插手 无关
即使想帮手也不应该 当会旁观者就算了
要不然会搞得更复杂 误会也许会越来越多
也不要太站在哪一方 站在中间当中间人就好了

就因为小小的误会,谎言
搞得自己不开心,生活中少了一个重要人物
值得吗?

事情结束了 过了不久后
也许会发现到自己当初是多么幼稚
弄到自己不开心罢了


以过来人,怀疑过别人的人,中间人 发言

Thursday, July 8, 2010

《无法坦诚相对》

原来各组都有问题的...

如果班上全部那些有心,勤劳,厉害的人一起合作的话... 会是怎样的呢?
出来的作品会是很很很好?还是会每个人各有各的意见而弄不好?
剩下的那些人会不会因为这样而争气,做好自己的本分?
会是以反省了的心态,还是不爽的心态?
还是会不变继续?


有些东西都不知该说还是不说
不想让身边的人担心,而不说
不想让身边的人担心,而说
不想让身边的人说自己以那件事当借口,而不说
还有很多很多很多理由

就因为不说,导致一些误会,误会中又再产生误会
就因为不说,一番好意,也会弄到一些人感到内疚或生气

每个事情每个情绪都有来源
A因不想让另一方担心而不说,另一方B不知详情觉得因别的原因而生气A
A方发现B方不爽,也跟着不爽对方
但A其实知道B在不爽什么吗?为什么不爽?
A什么都不说,B一直责怪A
但知道了A的一些事情后,自己会感到内疚因为一直责怪A
A呢?知道B会内疚吗?

很多人临走前,都会去尽量享受自己的人生,
做自己想做的事,高兴就好
不同的人会有不同的观念
有的觉得责任心比较重要,有的就吃喝玩乐
还有很多很多很多...


在两天内看完了一部日剧,11集罢了,一边看一边做功课
素直になれなくて(Sunao ni Narenakute) / 《无法坦诚相对》
又是由Nodame(上野樹里)和瑛太主演的
跟上次看他们一起演的"Last Friends"类似一样
关于友情爱情还有社会中的一些关系
不过主要的都是友情的... 就像剧名一样,“无法坦诚相对”

不关是友情还是什么情,大多数的人都很难跟任何一个人完全诚实坦诚吧..?
一直要顾虑他人的感受,怕说了会有不好的结局之类的...

很喜欢这部剧里的三首插曲
The Ting Tings 的 Great DJ
WEAVER 的 Hard to say I love you ~言い出せなくて~
菅原紗由理 的 素直になれなくて (不过对这个比较没兴趣.. 哈哈)


喜欢这首,因为无论节奏,arrangement或主唱的歌声
有点70至80年代歌的感觉,好歌存在的年代
蛮轻松的歌,而且整首歌单单只有D chord罢了就能作出这样的歌
实力派乐团


喜欢这首因为很适合戏或anime的歌,联想起Ayashi no Ceres的"Cross My Heart"
蛮新的日本乐团,不错一下


喜欢因为也是蛮适合这部戏,不过对她没什么兴趣...


忙忙忙... 忙忙忙...
即使现在再忙都好,未来一定会更忙
也一定有其他人比你忙十倍,一百倍
在忙都好,也得休息一下
也得找办法来让自己不那么压力
安慰自己,不是一件不好的事
只是让自己生活好一些

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Things

Things I should be doing right now and done by these few days
- flour sack
- HEAD ROTATION
- english for masscom report
- photography

Others
Mulitmedia Authoring and Interface design....

And why am I still here?
Last night watch korean drama summore (Call of the Country/Secret Agent Miss Oh/国家在召唤 NICE! =X)

Oh ya, and Fullmetal Alchemist has ended!!
So sad 'cause it ends so fast... =(



I don't like to be around the college bus stop these days
But what can I do? I still have to take bus from there
Seeing those juniors holding Fender, Epiphone...
It doesn't feel good.